Predictability. I'm a pretty big fan of it. Quite a huge fan, actually. In fact, if predictability had a fan club, I would probably be its president. I make no secret of the fact that I like order and crave rules. In short: Uncertainty is bad.
As my 30th birthday rolls around, I'm learning more and more that the future is the most certainly unpredictable thing in the world. And frankly, that scares me to no end sometimes. I like to know where I'm going, I like my goals to be firmly in place - I never, under any circumstances, want to fly by the seat of my pants, lest they should just fly off into the wind and I'm left there red-faced and embarrassed. Don't we all want to be able to map out our future and have everything neatly fall into place, just as we want and expect it to? Maybe it has something to do with wanting to be in control. We all like to think we are masters of our own universe, that we are fully in control of our destinies and if something goes wrong, we can immediately fix it. Everything will quickly be right with the world once we get things back on the path we've carved out for ourselves.
I often wonder about where I'm going and where I'll be in the future. Do you ever wonder about that, friends? So much has happened in the first 30 years of my life, and I can't help but think that the next 30 will be full of twists and turns and lots of surprises. So what do I want to accomplish? A sampling of my own bucket list:
*Write for Glamour magazine I've already got the blog covered!).
*Publish Letters To My Future Husband in book form.
*Travel with wild abandon around Europe.
*Continue to surround myself with loving family and friends.
*Fall in love, or at least stop the whole crushing-from-afar thing.
The truth is, we don't know exactly where we're going. We can put our end destination into the GPS of our life, but we can never be positive we'll arrive at our destination on time, or at all, for that matter. Our future sometimes has other plans in store for us, and I don't want to be one of those people who is so focused on one path that I become closed off to the possibilities of a different path.
So, maybe I don't know exactly where I'm going. But I do know that I look forward to the ride there.
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