I know you've been struggling. It hasn't just been in the last few weeks or the last few months. You've been struggling since father died. You may not want to admit that, but it's true. Where Ms. Bear and I sent our emotions out into the world (the good ones and the bad ones), you internalized them. You collected every last one, stuffing it down farther and farther until you were left with a pressure cooker of emotions just waiting to explode at any moment.
I know you feel lonely, and that just breaks my heart. I hope you know that I am here for you. Day and night. Always and forever. I just wish you could see your beauty like I do. You are such a wonderful person, and I'd give anything for you to see what I see. You have a journey ahead of you, but first? You need to begin to love yourself. Please? I know you can do it. Let your mother and sister's love for you be the foundation on which you build your love for yourself. You have to start somewhere, so let us help you.