my sister's recent struggles, and I wanted to thank you all for your wonderfully kind words of comfort and support. Your comments and Tweets were so sweet, and I know my sister really appreciated them. And, well, I thought today would be the perfect time to give you an update.
You know how sometimes you find yourself standing on the edge of a metaphorical cliff, and you get that sinking feeling in your stomach because you know that everything in your life is about to change? It's that sort of deep-in-you-bones feeling that just washes over you like a tidal wave. Part of you wants to look over the edge of the cliff while another part of you -- the part that's scared and terrified and so very unsure about everything -- just wants to cling to the nearby rocks for fear that if you do look, you'll most certainly fall down into the ravine.
Honestly? I'm scared to death. I'm scared that I have no idea what lies ahead. I'm scared of potentially not seeing Janelle for months. I'm scared of how hard this all is on my mom. I'm scared because this whole thing feels bigger and more overwhelming than anything we've been through since my father died. I'm scared because I don't want to go back to that scary place we all were following his death. I'm scared because I don't know how things could have ever gotten to this point.
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