Wednesday, October 30, 2013
On choosing to be happy
With Janelle coming home this week, I've been trying to get myself in the right frame of mind so I'll be able to stay calm and handle the next stage of her recovery right along with her. And now, more than ever, I'm starting to realize how important it is to choose happiness in life, no matter what sort of crazy whirlwind is going on around you!
We spend so much of our present life worrying and planning and ruminating (my mother has turned these into Olympic-worthy events) until that vicious circle gets so twisted in our heads that we have trouble distinguishing the future from the here and now. We agonize over the things we have and haven’t done. The things we should and shouldn’t do. The things we did that now we wish we hadn’t. The things we didn’t do that we now feel guilty for not doing.
Even now, I could name a handful of things I’d like to do (like organizing my room once and for all, for example), but really, the only thing I really want -- deeply and truly want -- is to be happy. With or without any sort of romance to speak of. With or without flat abs. With or without a burning-hot social calendar. I want to be happy with myself. I want to be happy with my life. I want to do things that make me happy. I want to make those I love happy. And I want to actively choose that happiness, not passively wait for it to find me. Because happiness is something only you can go out and find. Your happiness is your responsibility and no one else's.
[Photos via We Heart It]