Dear Mr. Melissa Blake:
Anyway, when did we first talk about my disability? I know, it's not something that I can easily hide -- I mean, it's pretty much out in the open 24/7. You see me and you immediately see my disability and my wheelchair. That's not necessarily a bad thing; it's just something you can't help but notice, sort of like when someone is rocking a huge tattoo or gold chains. I mean, I wear my disability quite well, but you know, it can't help but attract the eye.
Remember this guy from a few years ago? I was thinking about it again lately (I know, try not to get too jealous; maybe you're even him?) and I realized something: This guy, he wasn't fazed by my disability. It didn't seem to bother him. At all. In fact, in all our interactions, it never came up. There was no awkward fumbling over words and questions. There was no sense of uneasiness. There wasn't even any hint of him being uncomfortable.
You'd think I would have been hurt or disappointed -- you know, feeling like he didn't care or that he wasn't interested in getting to know me -- but I wasn't. In fact, just the opposite was true. For the first time, I found myself rather relieved. I didn't have to explain myself or go through the typical spiel that, quite frankly, I just get tired of giving sometimes.
He wanted to get to know me. That's it. Just me. It was something so little, yet it was something so big too. It meant the world to me.
Surprising, isn't it, Sweetpea? I guess that's why I wonder what it would be like if we didn't make my disability the "first order of business," you know? It doesn't mean that my disability is completely off the table for discussion because -- HELLO! -- we will be talking about it, but it doesn't have to hang in the air with the same urgency I once thought it did.
Heck, let's be real rebels and talk about something wild and crazy like our embarrassing moments or my love of cats! You know, really do the unthinkable!
Whew! That was liberating to get all that out. I don't know about you, but I feel much better! Until we meet... xoxo
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